As I have explored a range of books dealing with issues of faith and sexual orientation, one feature has constantly struck me: the astonishing number of books, each a landmark of the field, which have referred to John McNeill and “The Church and the Homosexual” as having been a landmark in their own journeys.
John Boswell, Daniel Helminiak, Gareth Moore OP, Elisabeth Stuart, and L William Countryman are a few of the seminal writers represented in my own book collection, that I can think of right off the top of my head, which make clear the important role of “The Church and the Homosexual” in creating, almost ex nihilo, gay theology as an entirely new and respectable field of academic study.
John McNeill has earned numerous formal awards for his work: just last year, he was awarded the “bridge builder” award by New Ways Ministry. The closing words of his acceptance speech are notable for repeating a recurring theme in John;s work – that the obvious flaws and fallibility so visible in the Vatican’s stance on “homosexuals” is providing an extraordinary opportunity for the Church, by creating the conditions ripe for the Holy Spirit to step in and transform the church – what he has referred to elsewhere as a real “Kairos Moment”.
To bring this reflection to a close, I believe that we are witnessing an extraordinary transformation of the Church from a patriarchal, authoritative institution into a Church of the Holy Spirit, a democratic Church that recognizes the Holy Spirit dwelling within all its members and sees authority as coming from the ground up.
At his discourse at the last supper Jesus is reported in the gospel of John: “It is necessary that I should go away before the Spirit can come to you. If I go away I will send the Spirit to you. The Spirit will dwell in your hearts and lead you into all truth.” What was that necessity? Why could the Holy Spirit not come as long as Jesus was alive?
I believe that Jesus was expressing a basic law governing human growth into spiritual maturity. As humans, we must grow from dependence on external authority to dependence on an authority that dwells within us. To achieve that growth we need fallible authorities. If our parents had been infallible we could never develop into mature adults making our own decisions and taking responsibility for them.
Thank God that Church authorities have proved so fallible. The result has been a maturing of the people of God. This began when the Vatican fumbled the issue of birth control, forcing millions of Catholic to exercise their freedom of conscience, make their own decisions and take responsibility for them. I have a sneaking suspicion that this is what the present Pope is against when he decries moral relativism. Speaking of our last Pope, Archbishop Weakland had this to say:
He (John Paul II) did not read the signs of the time, namely, the opening of Vatican II toward more participatory government on all levels of church life…Discerning the action of the Spirit in the whole Church was not on his agenda. This failure was probably the most important lost opportunity of the post-conciliar period (pp.407-408).
One of the greatest beneficiaries of the fallibility of church authorities has been the LGBT Catholic community. We came to realize early on that we could not accept and obey Church teaching on homosexuality without destroying ourselves physically, psychologically and spirituality. Consequently, as a matter of survival we had to take distance from Church teaching, develop our freedom of conscience and learn to hear what the Spirit of God is saying to us through our experience. The result has been that the LGBT community is leading the way to transform the Catholic Church into a Church of the Holy Spirit.
“The stone the builders rejected has become the corner stone! This is the Lord’s doing and it is amazing in our eyes.” THANK YOU!! New Ways Ministry for your many decades of heroic service to the Church and to the Catholic LGBT community Thank you, God, for all the special maturing graces you are pouring out on the people of God. Thank you especially for the special role you are calling the LGBT community to play in establishing the kingdom of God.
For the remarkable contribution that his first book made to the topic of gay theology, the response by the Vatican authorities was to order his silence. As a deeply committed Jesuit, he naturally complied, deeply though it hurt him to suspend what he could see was important work. Instead, he turned to a new direction, training and then working as a psychotherapist. As he constantly reminds us though, the holy Spirit has a remarkable way of turning the most adverse circumstances to Her advantage. Unable to remain silent any longer, he was eventually forced to leave the Jesuit order, and to forge a new life outside of his community. No longer young, this could not have been easy. Nevertheless, he made the adjustment, surviving the difficulties and insecurities “With Both feet Firmly Planted in Mid-Air”. No longer subject to Vatican censorship, he found he was able to publish with “Freedom, Glorious Freedom.”
John McNeill’s work as writer, theologian and psychotherapist have been an inspiration for over thirty years – an entire generation. When he started on his work developing the serious study of gay theology, he was virtually alone. Today, there is a publishing explosion of material drawing on his work. It is scarcely possible to find a notable writer on the topic who has not been influenced, directly or indirectly by his work. “Sex as God Intended”, published in 2008, contained as a Festschrift a lengthy collection of article by a range of writers, each of whom has made a notable contribution of her/his own to the field, describing the enormous debt that they owe to him. One of these , by Mel White, is titled “You saved my life” – quite literally, in this instance, through his work as a psychotherapist treating severe, suicidal depression. I am quite certain that through his books, and those of his followers, there will be countless other gay men and lesbians who can also say in all honestly that his work has saved their lives, directly or indirectly. Other contributors to this Festschrift, each a notable contibutor to the search for queer acceptance in church in her/his own right, were Toby Johnson, Mark D. Jordan, Robert E Goss, Jim Mikulski, Mary Hunt, Sister Jeannine Gramick, Vincent Virom Coppolla, Virginia Ramey Mollenkott, Daniel Helminiak, John Stasio, Brendan Fay, and Rev Troy Perry.
Personally, I too owe a great deal of thanks to John McNeill. When I first started writing here at “Queering the Church“, I was deeply honoured to find that he was an early reader, and offered strong encouragement for my early, faltering efforts. He remains a regular reader, and regularly posts comments in response to some of my posts. I am not nearly in the same league as the other writers who have paid tribute, and am touched that he should take the trouble to pay any attention. That he does so, is continuing encouragement and inspiration.
Part of the point of the Catholic recognition of saints is to identify role models for us to emulate. It is far too early to think in terms of formal “sanctity” (not least because John remains very much alive, and continues to make his contribution), but he is very much an important role model, whom we can all take very seriously indeed. If not (yet) a saint, we should give serious attention to recognising him as a notable martyr. “Martyrs” are those who give witness for the faith. Usually, we understand the term as bearing witness for the Church. Sadly, for gay men and lesbians, we must also recognise the number of men and women over the centuries who have been martyred by the Church. Under the Inquisition, this was usually quite literal, by burning at the stake, or other methods of execution, all unbelievably cruel. In modern times, the German Nazis, taking their cue from the Church, also created thousands of gay and lesbian martyrs, marked by the pink and black triangles.
Nowadays, martyrdom by the church is no longer literal, but symbolic, involving a death which is not physical, but professional – by silencing those in disfavour, eliminating their possibility of teaching or writing and remaining in the priesthood. Like Sebastian the first martyr, John McNeill has come back from the near death of his first martyrdom to confront the Roman imperial class ensconced in the Vatican, reprimanding them for their continuing failure to speak the truth in love, as Scripture commands (and as the CDF itself reminds us we should be doing. The important difference to the story of Stephen, is that having found freedom in his own ” death experience”, John McNeill is no longer subject to Vatican censorship, and can no longer be martyred by them.
There is a further reason for taking John McNeill’s story seriouslya s a role model. In his own speaking and writing, he is regularly open and generous in acknowledging and honouring the help and support he has received, emotionally and domestically, form his long term love and partner, Charles. We all need helpmates. McNeill and others have pointed out that in the earliest Genesis creation story, that in chapter 2, the emphasis is not on the need to supply Adam with a woman, but with a companion. The Lord has blessed John with just such a companion. To modify the old saw, let us remember that behind every successful man – there is another man.
Deo gratias.
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